SO. Lately I have been going through a lot. I’m in college, trying to pursue modeling and cosplay, have a boyfriend for nearly 3 years now and we have always been long distance, and in a town where I feel totally alone. I feel like I am watching the world pass me by. Watching my friends back home grow, move, or just be active in the community I long to be a part of. Everyday is like I’m trapped in this school prison hating my life and wishing I could join the rest of the world.
I’m doing bad at school, to the point where the school is going to kick me out of my major, and to get back into the major I would have to take a bunch of classes I have already taken. Grading is accumulative so with the new grade and my old bad grade I would have to HOPE that would be enough to raise the “core class GPA” high enough.
So I think maybe I could do that or maybe I could change majors. I look into Communications as a possibility and General Studies. I feel like either way I’m going to be stuck in this hell hole for at least two more years. When I don’t even want to be here for another day.
Today I got back a math test (in a class I am already retaking) and I got a D. That’s it. It was decided right then that I am changing my major.
I go to talk to the communications department and they are super nice and help me out and sign me up as a pre-major and talked to me about everything I need to get in. (Which is actually a lot of shit, letters of recommendation, résumé, examples of past work)
BUT the most amazing thing I found out. I will be able to graduate ON TIME. YOU GUYZ IM SO HAPPY. Like this time this year I will be getting ready to graduate! Ill be done! And I don’t even have to push myself! 3 classes per quarter pretty much!
this is like the biggest relief for me! I have been through so much shit and finally a fucking shinning light of hope. I want nothing more than to be back in Seattle, working, making money, living in my own place (hopefully with boyfriend :3), seeing friends on a regular basis, NOT LIVING IN LIKE 3 DIFFERENT HOUSES, modeling on the side!
This is what I have been dreaming about for YEARS.
Communications is basically the same kind of thing I was looking for in my marketing degree PLUS they have some awesome classes about media communications and stuff, I already planned out my next 4 quarters and I’m so excited for the classes I’m going to be taking!
Wow this is the first time I have actually been excited about school since probably freshman year.
I mean, I still have to tell my parents how I was “failing” and that I am switching majors, and that I probably have dyslexia, but ya know. Small victories.